Blog 8: Burnout

I’ve been dealing with what I can only describe as a heavy and persistent lack of motivation. That might sound surface-level, but it’s deeper than just not feeling like working. It’s been… an ever-growing list of responsibilities piling up, and me just not rising to meet them. Not because I don’t care, but because the more the list grows, the harder it becomes to even look at it.

I haven’t been submitting my timesheets, and as of this last week, my consistency in checking in dropped. That avoidance came back around hard this week. I got called into the office and was told I was in danger of being dropped from the project entirely. It wasn’t dramatic or shocking, but hearing it out loud forced me to admit to myself that I let things get out of hand. It’s one thing if I were the only one affected, but I have advisors that are counting on me to pull my weight. I can’t make my problems everyone else’s.

Folks believe in what I’m building. And I know that my work will create real impact. All it would have taken was being more prompt with communication and, well, submitting my timesheets.

After talking to Ms. Nagpal, I’ve been given a final opportunity to catch up. That means submitting everything I missed and sticking to it going forward. We are heading into the final stretch anyhow. It’s a second chance, and I don’t take it lightly.

This week wasn’t about music, or code, or design. It was about accountability.

I’m committed to pulling this project across the finish line.

See you next week.